A lot of people believe everyone is meant for someone. I've always wondered if this statement is true. They say we all have a soulmate, someone we're meant to spend eternity with but I don't think that's quite true. I think some people are just meant to be alone in life and in death. They're there to show you what not to do, how not to act and how not to treat people. They're there to show us what bad is so you know when you have something good and something real. If we didn't have bad people we would never know what good truly is. I think all the bad people in this world are here for that reason only, to just be bad but never meant to be with anyone.
I believe we all have a purpose in life and I believe some people's purpose is to be the bad. I believe I am one of these people, and I'm here to fuck shit up for you so you don't go fucking shit up for someone else. I believe I'm one of the disposables, I'm what I like to call an inbetweener. I'm just in your life for a moment, just there to help you pass the time. I'm there to fuck with your mind and show you what a fucked up relationship looks like. To show you what it's like to be a bad person. To show you the worst part of a storm. It may be extremely beautiful in its chaotic state; but once it's gone, there's a huge mess to clean up. So when the sun comes out shining, you appreciate it that much more.
When I come into your life I come with so much destruction but it's all a learning experience if you're paying attention. You use me as a stepping stone and take all the knowledge you've gained from being with a crazy person and put it to use to make sure your next girlfriend doesn't end up like me. I'm there to help shape you into a good person, to tell you you'll never be good to anyone unless you start acting right. If you don't act right with the next person you're going to end up with a shit storm worse than I give you. I'm your lesson, I'm there to just teach you and show you only the bad way of doing things. Take what I give you and make sure you never end up with a woman like me.
At least you know that every woman after me will be a Godsend. No one will ever level up to the craziness I offer. Everyone after me will simply be a joy, and you'll love them even more than you ever thought you could love because you managed to love a psycho who caused you nothing but turmoil. Your next girlfriend will throw a fit but it'll be nothing compared to the chaos I caused so you'll see it as adorable and easy to handle. You'll love all her annoying antics and habits because they'll be subsidiary to mine.
I am chaos, I am the unlovable, I am madness, I am the disposable, I am an inbetweener. Don't forget it, just remember I was only here to make life messy for you, I was here just to show you what not to do, and how not to love someone. I was your lesson, let's just hope you take your experience with me serious and you manage to not fuck up the one that comes after me. Take my teachings and use them in the correct way to love the right one.