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Lend me your hand and save me

Hi my name is Nathan, I have had a very difficult life from birth all the way up to this year. As a baby I was born prematurely and only weighed 2 lbs 8 oz. I was kept in an incubator for two months before I was released to my parents, my mom says she has never smoked, drank or did drugs in her life, or at least abused them. As a child of a big family 9 in total there was a lot of mouths too feed, of course that's not an issue if your parents have ambition, mine didn't. Sadly enough to get by we were on welfare all my childhood up till my parents divorce. They're marriage lasted seventeen long grueling years, during that time my dad verbally and physically abused us all. He would take our welfare checks and spend it on himself, he had the nice pants, shoes and whatever he wanted, mostly fishing stuff he loved to fish. Us on the other hand got our stuff from the salvation army, sometimes I would wear the same clothes all week at school. They were the same clothes me and my brother would lay down on the ground in our room to make the floor not so hard because we had no bed, so we would wake up and wear our bed to class. Eventually after seventeen years of abuse my mom finally left my dad, I thought great now we can start living a safe joyous life, but not soon after that my mom gave up all us children, all nine of us ages ranging from fifteen all the way down to 2, my sister's were taken by family but for some reason me and my brother were not wanted. We ended up in a foster home, then another and another until my uncle took us in. My uncle was never home because he was a truck driver and my aunt was a Jehovah's witness. We would go to church 3 times a week and on Thursdays we would study in the basement of somebody's house which was a little creepy, none the less this went on and on until she met a m man named Michael, a friend of my dad's who my dad met in a treatment center. This Michael was a real criminal making money off of selling weed and coke, my aunt started living his life style and eventually quit going to church, eventually it all came crashing down when my aunt was caught trying to buy seventeen ounces of cocaine, that actually reminds me of when my parents were still together and the drug enforcement agency bust down the door and tore the house apart I guess looking for Angel dust, or at least that's what they used to call it. I remember me and my sister's and brothers being lined up on the couch just sitting they're as thru tore our rooms apart, they didn't find anything except for a ridiculous amount of video cassette recorders if anyone remembers those things. We had so many because my mom would steal all the time then my dad would sell whatever she stole to his friends. Anyway after my aunt got caught that was the end of or stay with her, I eventually ended up at my grandmas until I left high school and ended up making a lot of bad decisions, who would have thought that would have happened, well long story short I became homeless more times than I can count, In and out of jail, just the bottom of the bottom not really thinking to highly of my self. Wish I could look back and think of when my dad would say don't worry son you can be anything, your so smart and the girls are going to love you but that's not what I would have remembered, now I finally have a shot at cleaning my life up and getting it together,I just got an apartment through section 8 and am signed up for online courses at full sail university for my bachelor's in game design, now you think we'll what changed your way of thinking so quick, well that same man that is my dad is also the man who was shot at pine grove cemetery in Wausau with just recently, he fractured his skull, broke every bone in his face and had 3 broken ribs and was also bleeding to death when they found him they had to give him 7 blogs transfusions to keep him alive and he did survive but now he has a traumatic brain injury. As a man now I think we he remember all of our child hood and what happened, so now it's like having a new dad but with bad memories that only I can understand so now as a man I have to do the right thing forgive and forget so I can help him like he should have helped me as a child. Being the man I have always been I love to help and help others when I can, even though I have my own apartment I came straight off the street with nothing so my apartment is empty no cleaning supplies couch dishes nothing, so I will leave a link here to my go fund me page and ask you all is you could please donate to help me in this time of need I would greatly appreciate it, when that time comes when I settle in and become what my dad should have instilled in my head I will remember you and who knows maybe I will lend that hand to you in your time of need, god bless you all and merry Christmas

https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-nathan-settle-in-and-start-his-new-life